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Beginning my critical reflection

 

As I wait for my draft feedback I decided to begin reflecting on what I have learnt during this module. during module one I actually discovered that reflection is at the heart of my practice, whether that is reflecting on my performance for ways to improve, or reflecting on feedback from teachers etc. you could also take it very literally as I use reflections from mirrors every day in my practice to see the shapes I am making and find ways of moving differently. My practice is one big fat reflective cycle. 

Anyway...

Module 2: here's a little rundown of how I found each section

Finding my topic: I actually found finding my topic the most difficult part, I felt that there were too many topics floating round my mind, how could I possibly pick just one?! so I spent the first month flickering back and forth between two topics which I realise now was not the best use of my time. EVENTUALLY, I settled on Music Performance Anxiety and its affects on musical theatre performers at auditions.  Unsurprisingly the topic actually came to me when experiencing performance anxiety surrounding my work for this course. I wish I had come to a decision sooner and I think this is about trusting my instinct and putting aside any feelings of self doubt. 

Lit review: I enjoyed developing a network of professionals that also shared an interest in my topic, however this was definitely the most time consuming section of the module. It's difficult to remember that you don't have to read absolutely everything. Sometimes I'd find myself endlessly reading and then clicking on a reference and reading again and then clicking on another reference and i'd end up on a totally different topic. it was really helpful to find ted talks and podcasts because they were way more accessible and I could listen to them whilst commuting to work etc. It was also a nice break from all the reading. 

Inquiry proposal: Honestly, to start with I felt like I was just faced with a load of words that I didn't understand, however I reminded myself of what I learnt in module 1 "to know something you have to go through a time of not knowing" and this was extremely uncomfortable! The concepts involved in methodology took a lot of reading but the book "how to do your research project" (Thomas, 2017) was SO helpful!! highly recommend. 

MORE form: I haven't actually had this back yet so I feel unable to comment on it however some advice for anyone doing their more form: don't think to much into it eg if you aren't using animals don't tick it, if the question doesn't apply to you put N/A. Remember that this form is used for every single Middlesex student writing an inquiry or a dissertation therefore not everything will apply to your topic. Also don't stress about writing loads, it can be bullet pointed. 

I am currently writing my critical reflection Essay surrounding what I have learnt from this module. If I could think of one thing I have learnt it would be that I need to have more faith in my ability and trust my instinct. I tend to be quite a cautious learner, and would usually take a more reflective observation approach however I didn't have that option during this module because everyone doing completely separate topics. Although this was scary It did teach me to trust myself and my work and I'm grateful for that :) 


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